Saturday, June 13, 2009
their friendship was like a big shining yellow star which i used to envy so much at times. i really hope they'll make up soon. its super contradicting dont you think? of all times, this silly friendship problems had to surface now. its a really sad thing.
but yeah anyway, past few days have been quite fun. i still have problems keeping my emotions from going up and down the roller coaster, but its definitely better! thanks to those esp crazy woman, jin, darren, jerry and calise for not minding my mood swings. i guess, maybe maintaining status quo is not bad either, at least its not so awkward, i really feel so spent that i dont have any energy to brood over the problem already!
jerome's birthday celebration was quite funny. he was really mean, trying to pretend to leave a few times! couldnt he pretend not to know we were arranging for a mini celebration?! a pity shangzhi, jin and meiyen couldnt join us, lol. we had quite a bit of fun, and not to mention argues over where to celebrate at. everything got quite messy, chocolate stains on their tees, flour everywhere! hahah, thank god i had an excuse:D but i was late okay, practically rushed all the way down there. jerome and xuanny decided to washup at the toilets there and went home drenched! HAH. i think it will get messy the next round somewhere two weeks from now:D cant wait!
and paul heng simply loves crushing dead leaves. i'm so going to get him a whole box of them for christmas this december!
wednesday was fun too! out with lijin, didnt know where to go, and we ended up at 201mac, BITCHING. talked about a whole lot of stuff, hers and my problems, haha childish and silly problems. and bitched a whole great deal about tayyewheng, that ugly hairy monster. we came up with a plan to utterly crush that big-headed self esteem bulit upon nothing else but mere lies! yes, we really hate that ugly thing.
yesterday was super hilarious. during lesson, i kept complaining about the ugly thing's big mouth to jin, i totally wanted to point at him and laugh, what an ugly fella. emaths and biology was funny too, sat at crazy woman's table to share the emaths textbook. and was smsing crap to paul during bio, that dead-leaves-filled brain of his is really slow! anyway, dinner was funny too, i was practically forcing jerome to go out get dinner for sihui, well she was hungry what! okay, but in the end, xuanny was hooked onto the xbox and refused to go out get dinner so, jerome didnt go either! failed plan lah! then the guys stayed over at school to play the xbox the whole night, i reckon. aniket sent a stupid sms to sihui, making the first move and lol, showing he had no guts! jerome and weihan must buck up already!
well that sums up about the whole week, so sad huh, school everyday. but well at least its funnier than a normal school day:D
but yeah anyway, past few days have been quite fun. i still have problems keeping my emotions from going up and down the roller coaster, but its definitely better! thanks to those esp crazy woman, jin, darren, jerry and calise for not minding my mood swings. i guess, maybe maintaining status quo is not bad either, at least its not so awkward, i really feel so spent that i dont have any energy to brood over the problem already!
jerome's birthday celebration was quite funny. he was really mean, trying to pretend to leave a few times! couldnt he pretend not to know we were arranging for a mini celebration?! a pity shangzhi, jin and meiyen couldnt join us, lol. we had quite a bit of fun, and not to mention argues over where to celebrate at. everything got quite messy, chocolate stains on their tees, flour everywhere! hahah, thank god i had an excuse:D but i was late okay, practically rushed all the way down there. jerome and xuanny decided to washup at the toilets there and went home drenched! HAH. i think it will get messy the next round somewhere two weeks from now:D cant wait!
and paul heng simply loves crushing dead leaves. i'm so going to get him a whole box of them for christmas this december!
wednesday was fun too! out with lijin, didnt know where to go, and we ended up at 201mac, BITCHING. talked about a whole lot of stuff, hers and my problems, haha childish and silly problems. and bitched a whole great deal about tayyewheng, that ugly hairy monster. we came up with a plan to utterly crush that big-headed self esteem bulit upon nothing else but mere lies! yes, we really hate that ugly thing.
yesterday was super hilarious. during lesson, i kept complaining about the ugly thing's big mouth to jin, i totally wanted to point at him and laugh, what an ugly fella. emaths and biology was funny too, sat at crazy woman's table to share the emaths textbook. and was smsing crap to paul during bio, that dead-leaves-filled brain of his is really slow! anyway, dinner was funny too, i was practically forcing jerome to go out get dinner for sihui, well she was hungry what! okay, but in the end, xuanny was hooked onto the xbox and refused to go out get dinner so, jerome didnt go either! failed plan lah! then the guys stayed over at school to play the xbox the whole night, i reckon. aniket sent a stupid sms to sihui, making the first move and lol, showing he had no guts! jerome and weihan must buck up already!
well that sums up about the whole week, so sad huh, school everyday. but well at least its funnier than a normal school day:D
what we could have been; 3:30 PM.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
you tell me perfecto; but i'd tell you it's simply just lies.
i believe the problem goes deeper and beyond salvage through by smsing. honestly, it just doesnt feel as if you're trying at all. and let me tell you, this goes further than just about the little time you have for us. in fact, i have never taken that as a significant reason for us becoming distant.
it feels just so empty inside, i just dont think that there's even any emotion within me to be described any longer. cant even recall how frustrated and upset i was just a few months back! i dont even have the energy to think or cry about it, which i usually will. i really dont understand why either. rebecca said that i have given up. haha, thinking about it, she's probably right.
they tell you laughter is the best medicine; but i'd tell you it's running away from the problem.
been laughing like a siaozhabor the past two days, laughing really hard. but i guess i didnt really feel happy at all. maybe i just really need a timeout. a getaway with either sihui or zeke, with someone whom i can really talk to. god save me, i really do not know what else i can do.
please, i need we really need to settle this face to face, and fast. i dont think smsing will get us anywhere, i know. i really want to salvage this friendship to the best i can, and rid of this barrier between us, once and for all.
with words, aloud.
mummy would tell me to pray about it, and i shall.
i believe the problem goes deeper and beyond salvage through by smsing. honestly, it just doesnt feel as if you're trying at all. and let me tell you, this goes further than just about the little time you have for us. in fact, i have never taken that as a significant reason for us becoming distant.
it feels just so empty inside, i just dont think that there's even any emotion within me to be described any longer. cant even recall how frustrated and upset i was just a few months back! i dont even have the energy to think or cry about it, which i usually will. i really dont understand why either. rebecca said that i have given up. haha, thinking about it, she's probably right.
they tell you laughter is the best medicine; but i'd tell you it's running away from the problem.
been laughing like a siaozhabor the past two days, laughing really hard. but i guess i didnt really feel happy at all. maybe i just really need a timeout. a getaway with either sihui or zeke, with someone whom i can really talk to. god save me, i really do not know what else i can do.
please, i need we really need to settle this face to face, and fast. i dont think smsing will get us anywhere, i know. i really want to salvage this friendship to the best i can, and rid of this barrier between us, once and for all.
with words, aloud.
mummy would tell me to pray about it, and i shall.
what we could have been; 11:19 PM.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
i'm really upset now. you think i'll simply skip papers for fun?
whatever, i think i might just do much better without a FRIEND like you.
its not the first time, but this shall be the last.
i promise you.
nevertheless, i thank god that i'm sick now, not somewhere like two weeks down the road. during chinese intensive or the actual chinese Os itself.
but please, headache, go away wont you?
whatever, i think i might just do much better without a FRIEND like you.
its not the first time, but this shall be the last.
i promise you.
nevertheless, i thank god that i'm sick now, not somewhere like two weeks down the road. during chinese intensive or the actual chinese Os itself.
but please, headache, go away wont you?
what we could have been; 10:15 PM.
Monday, April 27, 2009
wouldnt it be nice if the world was cadbury,
driving in a car with tasty treats.
changing gear would soon become a problem,
cadbury dairy milk is so good to eat.
when you arrive at your destination,
you'll be treated with an exclaimation!
wouldnt it be nice?
hahaha, what a cute song right! scribbled this on someone's chemistry practical script and ended up with eraser by-products thrown at me, lol. great, the midyears are in a week's time(: getting mentally ready for the grand arrival of the F9s! cleared up some personal stuff with my friends, much happier now. and oh, i've got gingerbreadmen for breakfast tomorrow, in your face DOUGH!
you know you just want to let go,
pain.
driving in a car with tasty treats.
changing gear would soon become a problem,
cadbury dairy milk is so good to eat.
when you arrive at your destination,
you'll be treated with an exclaimation!
wouldnt it be nice?
hahaha, what a cute song right! scribbled this on someone's chemistry practical script and ended up with eraser by-products thrown at me, lol. great, the midyears are in a week's time(: getting mentally ready for the grand arrival of the F9s! cleared up some personal stuff with my friends, much happier now. and oh, i've got gingerbreadmen for breakfast tomorrow, in your face DOUGH!
you know you just want to let go,
pain.
what we could have been; 11:00 PM.
Sunday, April 05, 2009
i'm feeling much better now(: thanks to the repetition of hey monday's songs playing over and over again in the afternoon, and two really funny people who somehow cheered me up. thanks! :D
come on, put on a smile!
come on, put on a smile!
what we could have been; 9:12 PM.
Friday, April 03, 2009
they got a sliver.
well, many of them cried badly. like, khairyl, weishan, yihui, wenshee, shila and so manymany more. i know i'll be doing the same if i was playing, hah. but, no i didnt today, or at least not due to that. i'm really not in a position to feel elated or disappointed. but the crestfallen faces of the sec threes reminded me of the last SYF, i still feel that i screwed it up causing the seniors to lose their only chance of gold. anyhow, band, you did your best and despite not reaching your goal, you gained loads of experience, havent you? so, just work even harder for the next concert or SYF two years later! jiayou:D
i pissed so many people off just within a span of two days, wow. great going, joelynn lim. i hate it how i cant seem to think before i speak or how irritating i get all the time. wished i was not so talkative or even, autistic or something! that way, i'll definitely shut up once and for all, no more problems and what nots. even casper's life is way better than mine, i rather have people critisize me and push my self-esteem to a near-zero than to have to reproach myself everytime my mouth shoots off without sending a nerve impulse to my brain. i'm so sorry, i promise to stay away and try not to bother you guys to the best i can.
lost sight,
couldn't see,
when it was you and me.
blow the candles out,
looks like a solo tonight.
i'm beginning to see the light.
blow the candles out,
looks like a solo tonight.
but i think i'll be alright.
well, many of them cried badly. like, khairyl, weishan, yihui, wenshee, shila and so manymany more. i know i'll be doing the same if i was playing, hah. but, no i didnt today, or at least not due to that. i'm really not in a position to feel elated or disappointed. but the crestfallen faces of the sec threes reminded me of the last SYF, i still feel that i screwed it up causing the seniors to lose their only chance of gold. anyhow, band, you did your best and despite not reaching your goal, you gained loads of experience, havent you? so, just work even harder for the next concert or SYF two years later! jiayou:D
i pissed so many people off just within a span of two days, wow. great going, joelynn lim. i hate it how i cant seem to think before i speak or how irritating i get all the time. wished i was not so talkative or even, autistic or something! that way, i'll definitely shut up once and for all, no more problems and what nots. even casper's life is way better than mine, i rather have people critisize me and push my self-esteem to a near-zero than to have to reproach myself everytime my mouth shoots off without sending a nerve impulse to my brain. i'm so sorry, i promise to stay away and try not to bother you guys to the best i can.
lost sight,
couldn't see,
when it was you and me.
blow the candles out,
looks like a solo tonight.
i'm beginning to see the light.
blow the candles out,
looks like a solo tonight.
but i think i'll be alright.
what we could have been; 10:22 PM.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
caught the moy flu, i think. but jiahui feels that the flu bug was from him.
skipped school today, was sneezing like 16247times!
maybe due to staying up to complete cheena, it was absolutely crazy. even mummy thinks its an overload of assignments. got to return lynnnn and jerome gao zi, i tell you i took like so many pieces from them. sorry!
anyway,-
lol, i'm actually glad that rarely anyone pops by here:D okay, other than maybe-wina, sihui and jaryl. yes, how great. i can happily post without any restrictions(:
i feel like listening to the song yellow now, miss tanya chua's voice, haha. yeah, a little random.
his eyes avoided hers at times, and she found a tint of hurt in his eyes. his swirl of coarse brown hair, barely camouflaging the streaks of grey among them. she swallowed hard, plagued with inexplicable guilt within. she sensed something coursing through her italian blood, something which felt like immense regret. images of the past which had been dominating her thoughts all day started nibbling at her again, cruelly and abruptly.
skipped school today, was sneezing like 16247times!
maybe due to staying up to complete cheena, it was absolutely crazy. even mummy thinks its an overload of assignments. got to return lynnnn and jerome gao zi, i tell you i took like so many pieces from them. sorry!
anyway,-
lol, i'm actually glad that rarely anyone pops by here:D okay, other than maybe-wina, sihui and jaryl. yes, how great. i can happily post without any restrictions(:
i feel like listening to the song yellow now, miss tanya chua's voice, haha. yeah, a little random.
his eyes avoided hers at times, and she found a tint of hurt in his eyes. his swirl of coarse brown hair, barely camouflaging the streaks of grey among them. she swallowed hard, plagued with inexplicable guilt within. she sensed something coursing through her italian blood, something which felt like immense regret. images of the past which had been dominating her thoughts all day started nibbling at her again, cruelly and abruptly.
what we could have been; 10:39 PM.
